perfect two song

perfect song.... surely this is one of the song that i will choose for my wedding day.... :)

it is about you, you, you, and you

the one who is willing to juggle own life for me, but i rejected you out of my life
the one who is willing to sacrifice anything for me, but i rejected you out of my life
the one who is willing to give anything for me, but i rejected you out of my life
the one who is willing to give utmost love for me, but i rejected you out of my life
i keep rejecting, and rejecting
i don't know what kind of person that my heart willing to accept
and i keep searching.and searching

for all the troubles that i have caused
for all the pains that i have caused
for all the heartbreaks that i have caused
for all the miserable life that i have caused
i only can say sorry from the deepest part of my heart.

30 may

kali pertama jumpa.... kalau sudah jodoh, takkan ke mana... :) bawa bertenang hadirin sekalian..wuhuu~ >.<
-Gawai Mode-

it doesnt matter or does it?

Your heart must be broken. I must have shattered your heart into pieces. Alright, good bye. I'm not going to care anymore. I'm cruel, ok, fine.

the birth of another me.

It's the starting point for Nana's World of Life. It's gonna be a new brand day. :)

Goodbye.

that poem, the words u said, those touched my heart. I admit it. But im afraid im not able to say yes. i can only see a bleak future out of it. It's like catching a shadow, ended with nothing. Before it's too late, its better for you to stop everything and let go.

the answer.

i was in shock and i am still. i dont know what should i give as the most appropriate answer for the proposal. This thingy is too fast and so sudden. It made me think more than 10 times and what i realised was i am too scared. accepting means im going to take very big responsibilities and accepting any negative probability. i rejected for a few times and should i keep rejecting? should i be the bad person? this heart is too weak to be able to put trust to anybody.
looking at this and analyzing it, it looks like it will be difficult path to go through. it seems to be impossible to do. or am I the one who lacks courage?

can i throw this opportunity and enjoy my youth? one thing that i know is that im not ready and i dont know when i will be ready.

please lost hope and go away. u put me into dilemma and taking the risk of f.i.l.
I'm sorry.